I am thinking of deleting that blog
I feel like so much things changed eversince I first typed my first entry.
Same person but different feelings and different interests in life.

I was so sure of who I was at that time
But now what I am sure of is that I am not who I was
And I will keep on evolving.

It’s really sad and nostalgic to realize that
It’s like turning a page of your life

I am still me
A me to be

Two extremes…
But still within the same person
We humans
Are complicated

Only the heart can’t be misled.

It didn’t start so well for me, and I breached all my resolutions right the first day, haha, but special situations triggered special reactions.

No Yuki, or very few Yuki this year 2010 for me. Actually I am not listening to music much, just like what our moms are, I actually became one. Boring, with other priorities than music.
Never thought it’d happen. But it did. Can’t stay young forever.

I am not even good with ramblings now.

So no blog entries either. I guess it s for your own good. Not that there are any audience there for my ramblings. More for the Jpop.

Cheers and happy new year again. May it rock!

But well from time to time it’s great to have a glimpse at those things I used to be fond of. Shizuru wearing a one piece swimming suit… what a waste

I don’t like any of those joyful tracks with flutes that Kajiura uses from time to time to illustrate light worryless joyful moments.
And as you can guess I am more into the dark moments or the very electronic beats moments.
Jazzy notes are also a treat.

So here are my fave from this OST 1

1. Foretaste : This darkness I like so much. Very Kajiura-like, nothing new. I will say it a lot during my comments, so don’t be surprised, it’s a very Kajiuran OST.
But the best part is the end, after 4 mn…

2. Misgiving: Dark. Less Kajiura-like. Short but efficient.

3. Another dimension: This one is like an already-heard Kajiura track. Dark as well. With uncanny chants.

4. Bloody Rabbit: Electronic beats, typical Kajiura. Beautiful chants. Exactly what we fans like.

5. Possess: Jazzy saxo, devilish beats. Great. Already heard some similar work, but well, as long as it is good. And this one is.

6. Alone: This one reminds me of the Kara no Kyoukai tracks. It’s beautiful. So soothing the chants. Feels great.

7. Contractor: Another Kajiura-like work. But it’s great. With those high pitch chants. Very catchy, very freestyle I feel. Feels like a patchwork.

8. Daydream: Uncanny yet sweet reassuring melody to guide you through the darkness. A daydream indeed.

9. Preparation: Another very dark track, with Kajiura stamped chants. Beautiful track.

Like usual, I don’t give much news, and the few news I give is pure random ramblings.

Which means it’s boring and totally egocentric…

I just wanted to say that it’s great to have ideas, but it’s so damn hard to make them happen.
The people who can achieve that have such a great will power.

I envy them and admire them.
And I think just admiring and envying people won’t change my life so much unless I do get inspired by them and actually make my ideas come true.

I don’t know if the ideas are good, I don’t know if it will succeed, probably it will take time and will be full of unexpected obstacles, and eventually it will fail, but if I don’t try, no one will know.

So hear me out people out there! Just dare, just be crazy, just do it (I hate Nike) and just stick to it and never give up, no matter how hard it happens to be, no matter how painful it is!
There is no success without pain.

And even failure will bring you wisdom and an experience that will always be useful.

OK I’m done with my grandma talk.

Let’s fight!

And one of these Jap band happens to be performing in a club yesterday, so I went there…

And that’s where it stroke me… the keyboard here below, which is Jap, happens to exactly look like Yuki…

Doesn’t she?

Isn’t she the perfect replica???

I never noticed that because in my usual bar she was either playing in front of me or from behind but never had I seen her from her profile

Psychopathy is a personality disorder whose hallmark is a lack of empathy.

Researcher Robert Hare, whose Hare Psychopathy Checklist is widely used, describes psychopaths as “intraspecies predators who use charisma, manipulation, intimidation, sexual intercourse and violence to control others and to satisfy their own needs. Lacking in conscience and empathy, they take what they want and do as they please, violating social norms and expectations without guilt or remorse”. “What is missing, in other words, are the very qualities that allow a human being to live in social harmony.”

Psychopaths are glib and superficially charming, and many psychopaths are excellent mimics of normal human emotion; some psychopaths can blend in, undetected, in a variety of surroundings, including corporate environments.
There is neither a cure nor any effective treatment for psychopathy; there are no medications or other techniques which can instill empathy, and psychopaths who undergo traditional talk therapy only become more adept at manipulating others. The consensus among researchers is that psychopathy stems from a specific neurological disorder which is biological in origin and present from birth. It is estimated that one percent of the general population are psychopaths.

Characteristics

The prototypical psychopath has deficits or deviances in several areas: interpersonal relationships, emotion, and self-control.
Psychopaths gain satisfaction through antisocial behavior, and do not experience shame, guilt, or remorse for their actions. Psychopaths lack a sense of guilt or remorse for any harm they may have caused others, instead rationalizing the behavior, blaming someone else, or denying it outright.

Psychopaths also lack empathy towards others in general, resulting in tactlessness, insensitivity, and contemptuousness. All of this belies their tendency to make a good, likable first impression. Psychopaths have a superficial charm about them, enabled by a willingness to say anything without concern for accuracy or truth. Shallow affect also describes the psychopath’s tendency for genuine emotion to be short lived and egocentric with an overall cold demeanor.
Their behavior is impulsive and irresponsible, often failing to keep a job or defaulting on debts. Psychopaths also have a markedly distorted sense of the potential consequences of their actions, not only for others, but also for themselves. They do not, for example, deeply recognize the risk of being caught, disbelieved or injured as a result of their behaviour.

This occurs more in males than females and begins at the age prior to 15

So after reading this, did you really know what a psychopath was?

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Anyway, it’s probably my last post before the new year, so I just wanted to say something, even if it’s meaningless.

I am listening to 30 second to Mars’ This is war album, and it’s really less interesting than the two previous albums. I am a bit disappointed, it’s like listening to the same melody throughout the album. -sigh- and it’s like a live… although it’s not one.
I am a bit mean, it’s Jared, so yeah, buy it :), sexy voice and I was just exaggerating, it’s not so dull.

PS: After hearing it for the 10th time, I don’t have the same first feeling for this album. I don’t know why it was so hard for me to get into that album but now that I do, I really enjoy all of it, each of the songs are indeed different and are pretty addictive. My first feeling was that it was a recycled medley of the previous albums but finally, it is simply the 30 s to Mars style, that’s why it was all the same to me.
For what it’s worth, my fave song is Hurricane… Now it’s said, I suck at giving my opinion!

This year has been awful for me, I hope it’ll be better this upcoming year. But hoping won’t get me far if I just sit there doing nothing…
So yeah, 2010, “this is war”, I’ll make it better.

Wish you a nice war this 2010! Be happy!